Day Eleven

I definitely had no problems sleeping last night after so much walking yesterday. I did wake up a couple of times, I think because my jaw hurts for a second or feels weird or something but I go right back to sleep. I didn't even need any ibuprofen this morning! Usually I need something but not today!
But today was a crappy day. Not because of pain or anything, I'm just not happy. They said to expect a day or two of "the blues" and I guess that's what today was. This post will probably turn into a lot of complaining but I have reasons to complain and if you don't like that then you don't have to read this.
I'm just really fed up with everything and getting impatient. I was so happy to be allowed to eat soft foods but it's pointless. Food isn't even good when you have to mush it up and just kind of half ass chew it and squish it against the roof of your mouth with your tongue and swallow. And it takes an hour to eat anything. By the time I'm done, I'm hungry again. Then I go rinse my mouth and have enough food fall out that could be a meal for a toddler. No kidding, So much gets stuck in..everything.
I'm also sick of not talking. I love talking and I have a lot to say all the time. But now I don't even feel like it. It's easier to just not say anything.
And now to my face... I feel like the swelling will never go away and I am so sick of seeing this round stupid fat face looking back at me in the mirror.
And I'm sick of sitting my ass on the couch watching this dumb tv. All semester when I was doing homework for hours and hours a day I would think about how awesome it would be just to sit on the couch and watch a bad reality show. NO. I have had enough of that.

I am thankful to have the nausea, pain, stuffy nose, liquid diet misery over, but now it's a waiting game. I have many weeks of numbness and swelling and awkwardness and hunger pangs ahead of me and I am not a patient person at all. I just desperately want to get back to my regular normal life and laugh and eat and talk without all the extra exhausting work to do so. I am definitely not at the "this was the best decision of my life and I'd definitely do it again" point right now.